As a similarly longstanding supporter - parents , grandparents - stool on the Archers Road end etc - the spirit of Southampton meant a small club - my club - fighting with integrity against the big boys. At the away matches with big john, sydenham, paine and Ron and channon and other fans calling us animals the big thing was that we were a family club - my family club - achieving against the odds. Now we are just the same as all the other commercial rubbish with trash like Lowe and Wilde squabbling over the remains. No wonder you've lost hope. its not to do with the league position there are two divisions below us. Its the lack of ownership and the feeling of betrayal, the hype and the nonsense. This isn't my club any more. When it is I'll return.